I've had a lot of people sympathize with me over the struggles of falling in love with a child in my care and then having to give them up. Many have told me that they could never be foster parents because of this.
But giving a child back to a family who has worked hard to prove that they can provide a safe home for that child is not what I consider the hardest part of my job. Truthfully, I feel like that part was a piece of cake. I had a good cry and now I'm ok.
The hardest part is hearing about a little girl who has been sexually abused. Reading about how they moved her to a relative's house and there she was abused again. So she was moved to a foster home and a foster sibling was abusive. So they need a home for this little girl and her younger brother. Most of the resource families are full can someone take her in?
And I can't. That's the hardest thing about being a foster parent.